I found this written on a sheet of paper in a box I never unpacked when we got to the Glenwood house. Its funny to try to hold onto something so tightly and then read something that makes you remember how I had considered letting go so many times before.

I found this written on a piece of paper in a box I packed from Rifle and never unpacked in Glenwood. Its funny how I convinced myself I never wanted to let you go... when I had considered it so many times before I made the decision to stay and move in with you... but it was written about you, so I am sharing it.



May 21, 2011





Even if the earth just swallowed me whole,



I ‘d still have my soul,



So full of pain and the times that I tried,



And gave all I had just to tide someone over



So I wouldn’t ache



so alone and the break in my heart



Might have a chance to heal from the start



But it seems Im just so far away from the finish line



every time I commence to mend the breaks



The emptiness overtakes as I make more mistakes



And I lose all the ground I have gained



And the love that I’ve found



Gets so lost in the sound of my tears while I drown



dreaming away this nowhere town…



But its not as bad as the taste of the lies



or the silence that buys us



one more minute to waste



as I put off goodbye



Tell me just a few more,



lie that you’ll stay and everything is ok,



That I am not all alone



That I will always be home



in your arms…



I am so charmed by your smile,



It captured my attention,



Not to mention my lips and my hips,



In a pool at the tips of your fingers



While the memory of your touch just lingers like an echo



On my skin not enough to relieve but enough to give everything that I’ve got,



Is it enough, probably not



But I’ll still try



Give my soul til the earth swallows me whole



or stop telling you lies that I want to stay,



putting off my goodbye.