A few years ago an old friend of mine said, "I don't even know who you are anymore!" I said, "I do. I'm the person who has always and will always be the person who is there for someone when they have nothing and no one, because I know what that feels like, to be lost, hopeless, and invisible." However, I had no idea how incapable I was of actually being there for anyone, because I was so lost, hopeless, and when I looked in the mirror I saw nothing to love. I had become, and always have been I think, invisible to myself. Today I'm learning what is love, how to be there for myself and others, and ever so slowly, when I look in the mirror, I am beginning to see a person who is worth love, worth being there for, and has something to offer, if just the ability to share my experience and the strength I am finding,  to offer a hand to hold in the darkness, and to lend an ear to listen. No one could fix me until I was willing to fix me. No one could love me until I was willing to love me. No one could help me find hope until I found the gift of desperation. Today I am willing to hope, today I am willing to let go of the impossible need to be perfect, and today I am willing to accept that I am a work in progress and I will always be. Today I see to be alive is a miracle, because that desperation has nearly taken my life so many times because I couldn't understand that I cannot make demands on others to fix me or to solve my problems. Today I am grateful to walk beside such amazing humans on the same spiritual journey of discovering self. The biggest lie I have ever told myself is that I am alone. The biggest truth I have found is that I never have been and it is my choice to fight and stand alone or to surrender and be embraced in the sunlight of the spirit that lives in everything and everyone. Today I am grateful for my tribe. Today I get to be there for myself and others, to see where we are the same rather than separated, and to find the light that joins us all as beautiful humans. 

Lots of love, 

Megan